its been a long time and this feels really dumb, but im bored and need to pass the time.

new stuff... well, lets see... oh, there was that whole getting engaged thing. After a month moving in together. Getting in a huge fight 4 days later. Breaking up. Him leaveing me in the apartment alone. Taking all his shit and leaveing me with a TV stand and a bed frame(no bed). Oh, wait he did leave me something else... bills,that i CANT pay(college student). besides that im trying to find a roommate so i dont get evicted. Parents cant know. They have thier crap to worry about. Doesnt matter 'cause im making it.

Merry Christmas

so... i finally moved back to school...and it is not the same. there are some of the same people who are the same and some who are fucking strangers. most of the freshman drive me fucking crazy. WE ARE NOT IN FUCKING HIGH SCHOOL ANYMORE! it is time to grow up, little ones. some are going to have a rude awakening. oh well, not my problem, i guess. it just gets really aggrivating, especially because i have a lot of other shit to deal with. i just found out last week that my step dad has cancer. so, dont exactly feel like dealing with this high school bullshit. fuck it, things have to get better...right?

So... The day has been pretty F'ing boring!!!! So i guess i really dont have anything really interesting to say, but i dont want this to be a waste... Here's s little story:

Once apon a time there was a giant. The giant squeezed Jack and said, " tell me a story or i will grind your bones to make my bread, and when your story is finished, i will grind your bones to make my bread anyway. Ho Ho Ho!" the giant laughed an ugly laugh. Jack thought, "humm, he'll killl me if i do, he'll kill me if i dont. There's only one way to get out of this." Jack cleared his throat and began his story. " Once apon a time there was giant. The giant squeezed Jack and said, " tell me a story or i will grind your bones to make my bread, and when your story is finished i will grind your bones to make my bread anyway. Ho Ho Ho!" the giant laughed an ugly laugh. Jack thought, " hum, he'll kill me if i do, he'll kill me if i dont. there's only one way to get out of this." Jack killed his throat and began his story. " Once apon a time...

So...this is my first, official, entry...

humm... i guess i thought it would feel different... special. But the truth is its like my first time... a whole lot of excitement and expectation... and no climax.

Oh well, what are ya gonna do?